I am You

I can't imagine anyone being more sweet to or generous with me and I don't know how I can even begin to give him what he gives me...I feel like I don't deserve this, I feel so unworthy. Years of being treated poorly has got me believing that I am not enough and yet last night he sent me a text that said simply "I appreciate everything you do...always"
I cried. What am I doing? I don't feel that I am giving him enough that is worthy of appreciation. John Friend said in the workshop over Valentine's weekend that "suffering comes from a limited vision of who you are" and that " you MUST drop that which makes you feel unworthy to receive the divine."
But what is it that makes me feel unworthy to receive this love? That rather than be filled with bliss to receive it I worry that I am not enough, that I can't possibly begin to give him what he gives me, even when he tells me I do? I am suffering because I feel unworthy and I know my heart still has much healing to do.

Summary of my notes from the Melt Your Heart, Blow Your Mind weekend in hope of finding inspiration and worthiness to receive this love:
The weekend was about reflection: I am You. We are reflections of each other and by just reflecting the love we receive, we help to raise each other up, we stimulate each other's energy. We think "wow, you are beautiful. I want to be beautiful too...I want to inspire you, I want to be beautiful in my words, my actions, my image"
The highest level of relationship is one that helps us to experience our own inner delight...you see yourself. The sharing of ananda (bliss) is prema (love).

So by being sweet to me, being generous to me, looking at me with those beautiful kind eyes, he is inspiring me to be the same. And I must be reflecting some of it because he tells me he appreciates me and I can only believe that he wouldn't be giving that to me if he weren't receiving it back. So I will meditate on that theme: I am You. I want to be beautiful, I am beautiful for you, because of you.